REclaim

I am reclaming my space:  desk space, mind space, time space...  I am feeling VERY overwhelmed today, like I'm spinning in mud.  I can't seem to get anything done.  If I could just get one thing done and check it off, maybe the constriction I'm feeling in my chest might subside a bit.

Maybe.

I've got this jabberwocky pile of papers on my desk (OK, 3 piles) and an outrageous amount of emails amassed in my inbox (813 unread) - this is work email, by the way, so its really NOT good that I'm out of sorts with that.  Just had a surprise meeting with a vendor that they said they had emailed me about. I advised them, "clue number 1 I'm not expecting you is when I never replied to your email."  For my own sanity, I did go thru my emails and there is not one from him about meeting today.  There was one, tho, mentioning the need to get together, but since there wasn't anything specific regarding date & time, I'm putting this back on him.  So there.

Not gonna mention that someone claimed they had left me a voicemail several days ago that I hadn't yet returned.  Made me realize I hadn't checked it in a few days...  Well, make that several days because I had 17 unheard messages.  Yes, 17!  WTH???  (Oh, and by the way, there was no voicemail from the person who claimed to be waiting to hear back from me.)

And it just occurred to me:  that was the landline.  I haven't yet checked my cellphone's voicemail.  Ugh.

So, what do I make of all this?  I think I need to REprioritize and REclaim my life.  I'm going to push everything on my desk into a big pile and I'm going to start @ the top & whittle my way down until everything is addressed.  Then, I'm REcommitting my time to check voicemails three times a day (first thing in the morning, after lunch & before I leave at night).  To catch up on old emails, I'm going to set aside 30 minutes a day to start with the oldest & work my way up to the most recent.  I'm also going to stay on top of current emails better.

The tightness in my chest has actually lessened just mapping out this plan here.  Amazing how freeing that exercise always is for me.

RElief

What a weight off my mind to have finally, after several weeks of scraps of notes hither & yon, to have taken the time to organize my thoughts into my never-ending-compilation-of-lists.

Whew!

This year has been a whirlwind:  WTH happened?

I intended for 2013 to be different.  I was going to focus & accomplish.  The plan was to dedicate every month to a project, but here it is May (May!) and I'm floundering.   

Yeah, I know, "it's the nature of the beast" (the beast being work), but I refuse to resign myself to "this is my life," "it is what it is."  I will check some things off the list this year.  I will stay focused & I will NOT be dissuaded by life.  I manage pretty good but as my birthday looms near (2 weeks away), I think of the weight I haven't lost, the 5Ks I haven't trained for, the book I haven't written... same ol' same ol' resolutions that don't get done! 

Ugh.

At least work is going well!  :)